i am not okay. who do i talk to?

Christmas is coming !

Today I was meant to go to a beach with my friends (and the weather was perfect for it=( ), but most people were sick, so I decided to postpone it (yet again sigh). I then thought I would have another boring day, but in the end SM and I went CHRISTMAS SHOPPING!


Omg, Christmas shopping made me feel so happy inside! Except maybe I'll regret how much I spent later...I'm going to add up the receipts now ><... around $211 for my  loved ones! Oh and add another $69... so around $280 in total! holy shitt. I hope I get some presents lol...=)


I also went to visit my darling TL, who I haven't seen lately because he's sick =(. His family don't really celebrate Christmas, so I bought him a little tree that lights up and stuck it on top of the presents I bought him =). On that note, we haven't set up our Christmas tree yet, and Christmas is nearly upon us! I reckon this is the latest we have ever left the setting up of the tree =(.


anyway, more later, i'm off! If I don't find my way back on blog before Christmas/New Year...


HAVE A MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR!! 

back from road trip!

I'M BACK! Road trip was pretty fun, even though there was a lot of drama from the very beginning.

Day 1

Got up at 8am to finish packing & waited for TL to pick me up. He told me he was going to pick me up at 8:40am, and instead, called me at 8:50am to tell me he just left the house -_-

Anyway, after he picked me up, we went to pick up IT and waited outside his house for 10 minutes. Then we headed back to TL's house, and got maccas on the way, with TL trying to finish his food before AW came to get him. 

bla bla bla.

Well, after all this driving around of people, TL AW and V16 went to go get alcohol. Why I'm calling V16 V16 is because they wasted over half an hour of time getting alcohol and failing because the asian lady at the Stratty Dan Murphy's refused to sell them alcohol because V16 looked 16yo and didn't bring his ID (he's 20). EPIC FAIL!

One thing you should know is that we were going up to the place we were staying in two groups - we had two houses, and one had a late check in time due to the people staying before us having a late checkout time - we were meant to be the early group. Turns out, we left at least 2 hours later than planned, and became the late group -_-. 

Once we got to the house, the guys and girls already there had bags-ed their respective rooms, leaving a few people unhappy due to the un-thoughtfulness of the situation :( sadface. Let's call the "early" group of people, who were meant to be the late people, Group A, a few individuals Group B, and the rest, Group C. As you might have figured out, there was quite a bit of segregation going on, but anyway, onwards!

We went shopping - food was bought separately for both houses, in order to make the splitting of receipts easier (this ended up failing after the first night). We had spaghetti bolognaise the first night and it was pretty good. I helped wash up, and then took a shower before heading to the other house for drinking!

We had Court - I'm not gonna explain it, it takes too much time, and this post is prob gonna be long enough already. Essentially, AW and GS were the Honourables, and the rest, Brothers and Sisters. etc etc etc. We ended up playing a few drinking group games, such as car crash, antlers, numbers, and "the duck jumped in the lake plop". Didn't get wasted :(

Day 2

Ok this post is starting to get too long, and my memory is failing. I'll just summarise.

Started watching Glee again.

Picked up KL from train station 40 min away. 

Fish and chips for lunch (wasn't that great). V16 had fish and chips on Day 3 and it smelled and looked heavenly.

Beach - made a Aztec pyramid with TL <3 HAHA....it had paws, like a sphinx O_O. And there was some ice cream mountain nearby which I demolished cos it sucked :p. 

Dinner - BBQ (yummy!) Aeroguard passed around. ND literally disappeared in a cloud of aeroguard, that's how much he was spraying on himself. Dramadramadrama. Saw TT in the windows of the upstairs of the other house with HL and she was very upset :( I don't know why, but I tried to comfort her, and probably failed because I had no idea what was going on. I think it had something to do with Group A. 

Drink time - OMG FUNNIEST NIGHT EVER. We played Chinese Whispers Action Style for the majority of the night, and it was awesome. Couldn't stop laughing :D. The best night I've had for a while, easy. After a while, TL, who said he was gonna chuck an all-nighter, fell asleep while everyone else was still awake. We then proceeded to play random rhythm games, and then after TL woke up, we sorta sat there in awkward silence doing nothing, and I decided to leave and go watch Glee or something in bed. 

Go up to my house and Group A hurriedly beckons me over to help them finish their alcohol LOL. We had 7 shots of QF each, and I had some vodkamelon (which tasted foooul haha) and watched them all get MAG and stumble over eachother and gradually get louder and louder (they were trying to be quiet in the beginning because there was someone sleeping on the couch right next to us), until CW came upstairs and told them off for being loud. Me, AL and JL were still alright, but then JL started getting emotional after being called fat by DL naaww, so then she was gone too LOL. AL and I started eating shapes and watching the drunk proceedings. I then had a vodka orange and decided not to have anymore. They had yummy chocolate choc chip icecream mmmm, so yummy. I also witnessed some pretty evil planning going on, and I was pretty taken aback lol. They ran out of Midori, and someone from Group B, i think it was DC, had some left in the fridge, and this guy started planning about how we could just take some and if we replaced it with coloured water or something, they would never know. The others were against it ofc, but I think the guy might have kept pushing if I didn't say, "why don't you just pay for what you drank tomorrow when he wakes up?" - everyone agreed with that idea, but I can't believe that evil plan came up in the first place :(.

Day 3

Woke up late.

Watched "Salt"

Watched "Glee" while waiting for Group A (who went on a trip to National Park) to get ready to go beach. Randomly witnessed tension between A, CW and K. A left us (yes he literally left the roadtrip and went home to Sydney) while we went to the beach. I don't know if it was a result of the tense argument, but we were told it was family matters ><. Hope everything turns out alright for him.

Went to beach - went up some 45 degree angled sand slope. I WAS SCARED FOR MY LIFE. Saw some dolphins from the top of this sand hill, then started going down to see if we could see them because they looked like they were heading towards the beach. TL tried to get me to overcome my fear by jumping on the hill, and i was so scared. On the way down, I crawled. Backwards. With my eyes firmly closed. It didn't help that the wind was blowing sand painfully against my skin and face. TL had gone ahead and zoomed to the bottom of the hill, but I was so scared ><. He came back up again and helped me the rest of the way down because the reason I was getting owned so badly by the sandstorm was because I was practically sliding down the hill. Once I stood up, the sand wasn't killing me anymore :)

Then me and TL went pippy-ing. My grand total for this trip was 2. TL's grand total was 2, but it was more like 1/2, because they were 2 little baby ones, which died -_-. One of mine died :(, but I watched the other one dig itself back into the sand. 

Everyone took jumping photos (like the Toyota ones) and then proceeded to try a human pyramid. I think there was 5 on the base and OMG they wanted me to go on the top. By the time we were up to the 2 people, it was already way higher than my head, and people started looking wobbly, so I didn't go up (scared of heights, and scared of dying by gettin squashed if I fell off the pyramid).

Dinner - dominos pizza. more drama with a pizza mixup, where Group A took TT and HL's pizza (which was puff crust - their one was meant to be pan) :(. TT was very angry and HL looked pretty upset :( i also had a little spiff with TL because I said we should've gotten a whole pizza each instead of half halfing and he got upset because I usually tell him off for overordering food, and this time I told him off for under-ordering food. Sorry dearrrr *huggles* <3

Drinking - played the flip the cup game. I rock at it, not to be boastful or anything. I only got punished once for losing, and it was a "Challenge" round by TL -_- HMPH PUTTING ME UNDER PRESSURE. Other rounds, 8/10 times I beat TL :D hehehe. yuk, tequila. 

also played 21 and the fives game. 

the night ended up with AW slapping people, hard, and getting a throbbing red hand that was almost purple =O. he wanted to slap people in the face... O_O scary (he said it was fun). 

Day 4

Pack up and left by 10. We took some photos, and V16 tried to destroy my new camera by playing with the lens (which was also the on off button). >=(!

Watched Glee on TL's laptop the whole way back, until the battery died :(

OMFG I AM SO CRUSHING ON JESSE ST JAMES (JONATHAN GROFF) OMG HE IS SO HOTT *squeals*

anyway yeh, and then i got home and did chores.

3/5 of our family going to china tomorrow. the next 2 weeks are either gonna be filled with loads of work to do, or freedom! :D. Either way I'm going to be tired.

Ok, I'm done for now, gotta go call my darling :)

x

can't wait to get away

I can't wait to go to on the road-trip, surrounded by friends and friends-to-be hopefully. I'm sick of this oppressive depressing atmosphere right now. I'm sick of being used as a taxi driver for my ungrateful sister late at night. I know it's only the second time I've stayed up this late for her, but once was enough, and that was only two days ago. I'm so tired. I haven't caught up on my sleep since my last exam (which I survived with only 2 hours of sleep) because people just won't let me wake up naturally in the morning. I WANT TO SLEEP!

It doesn't help that my dear mother is pms-ing everywhere, snapping at the smallest thing. I say one thing, in response I get a tirade of abuse in return. Normally my mum tells me to get out when she's angry, but this time she told me if I wanted to stay, I had to pay! "This isn't a free hotel". wtf! And the thing is, every time I even mention moving out, she opposes it! wth man. I remember once she told off my dad for saying things he didn't mean when he was angry - what a hypocrite. I swear, if I get annoyed enough next time, I think I'm just gonna leave if she tells me to get out. It's happened so many times over my life, all the way through childhood till now. I'm tired of empty threats. If you're gonna get so passionate in your rage to say things like that, you might as well act on it, you've said it so many times. 

Oh, and everyone in my family are or have been to china this year. except me. i'm not going, no siree. And when I asked why, no proper reason was given. It's so unfair. And tomorrow, when I have a birthday party to go to for a pretty good friend of mine, my mum decides that it's so unfair of me to go out and not help ever since I went on my holiday (one week ago) and that I can work while she goes shopping for her clothes. Ok, I get that I haven't helped yet and I'm acting selfish ladidadida, but why can't my sister help? She never helps. And no, you can't use the excuse that she has HSC anymore cos its FREAKING OVER. And today happens to be my sister's formal (which I'm staying up late for) and my mum was talking on the phone with her, and then asks her if she wants to go shopping tomorrow! WTF. Unfair to the max. You're going overseas together, is it too much to ask to take me shopping and leave her to work? Do you even realise how unfair you're being? And just because I work now doesn't mean I can pay for every single little thing you know. I'm still a dependent, since you won't let me move out of this house, so why should I pay for every single item of clothing, food, and fucking rent or someshit for living in this house? If I had to pay rent, I might as well go live somewhere else and pay rent there. 

oh and, apparently, now my sister is going to sleep over at a guy's house. for those that know me, you'd be going wtf? number 1. we're never allowed to sleep over. number 2. especially at a guy's house. so. i stayed up late for no reason, AND my sister gets to sleep over at some guy's house for the night, when I can't even sleep over at my best friend's house for a night. 

life is unfair. ramble ramble ramble. 

i just want a hug.

please? 

zzZZzz

its 12:08am and my eyes are dry and sore. but i can't go to sleep yet because i have to wait to pick up my sister. sigh. if there's one thing bad about now having my license and being able to drive, it's that all the late night pickups of my siblings get shoved to me. i better get a decent sleep in tomorrow, i haven't slept well in so long, and i'm tired all the time. haven't been able to enjoy my holidays properly yet, although the time right after my last exam was pretty fun. 


last saturday was my volleyball club's function, and i received the div 1 women's player's player of the year award hehe =). that was fun. wish i had the guts to make a speech though...but i get really bad stage fright even if there actually is no stage and its just people looking at me ><. 


sunday i cleaned my room - it's already starting to become messy again haha....damn.


monday i worked and went to training for the first time in a couple of weeks - my hitting was so off, i could barely hit anything. the only thing i could actually do was serve and sort of pass hahahahaha fail.


tuesday i ended up going shopping with my mum and sis - bought a decent dress, and a couple of other items of clothing i forget. 
tuesday night i went to karaoke with my bf and his friends. pretty sure it was the best time at karaoke i'd ever had haha. initially i was all quiet and sat there while everyone else sang, but then the songs that were on were just too good to just be shy and sit there for. so in the end i um, "sang" and yeh haha. fun =D


wednesday i just went to work, and my last volleyball training until the next uni semester starts. sigh i'm gonna get soooo behind in my skills. but i think my last volleyball training was pretty good - i was actually hitting pretty well even though my timing on my run up wasn't as great, and i kept losing my balance. OMG it was so hard to jump! i really have put on quite a bit of weight ever since the exam period started loool not good (TIME TO GO ON A DIET). omg im so sleepy, i hope i dont' crash and die when i go pick up my sister. sleeeeeeeeeepyyyyy.......


woo things to look forward to over the next week:
1. MS's birthday party...HOMG CHOCOLATE FOUNTAIN <3
2. ROAD TRIP! =)

....GRENADE!

HEADACHE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh my f***ing god.


My brother is currently throwing a 10th birthday party, and boy was it a mistake to have a house party. You probably all know how 9yo and 10yos are. LOUD. And they don't listen to you. I hope we never do this again, because I swear, I just want to yell at all of them. Well there are some exceptions, but the majority drowns out whatever protests the good ones are trying to make. I've yelled at this one boy now, because he doesn't listen, and he stole the good boy's plate of sushi, AND when we told him to close the door because there's some wasps nests outside, he opened it till it couldn't go any further, and i just snapped and yelled CLOSE THE DOOR >=( >=( >=(!!!!! 


Oh, and I really don't like one of my little bro's friends. I reckon he's gonna grow up to be a real dickhead - he's downright rude, damn annoying, and reckons he can do whatever he wants. Like when we were handing out icecream, he was fully going CAN I HAVE ONE CAN I HAVE ONE, and i just said YOU'LL GET ONE JUST CALM DOWN. And then you know what happened? He only ate half of it, and then said he didn't want it anymore. WTF. I REALLY REALLY DISLIKE YOU LITTLE BOY. I hope my bro will outgrow him, because I don't want someone like him to be influencing my little brother. Unfortunately, he lives very near us, so we've had to put up with him many times already. Gawd. 


AND SOMEONE CAME INTO MY ROOM AND DRIPPED ICECREAM ON THE FLOOR WHEN WE CLEARLY SAID TO EAT ICECREAM AT THE TABLE. SCREW YOU. I'm actually quite proud of myself that I didn't go and yell at the group of boys as soon as I saw it. 


Anyway, I have the biggest headache ever, and what a waste of my study time. And because they were so loud, the silence is even more deafening now. 


Anyway there's my bitch for now. ciao


Update


wtf, the little boy i hate is still downstairs! my mum was trying to tell him that she was going, so he had to go with the other guys who were all somewhere else (he was the only one left downstairs playing my sister's ipad). He was just like, "eh..ok..mm..." to everything my mum said. I then proceeded to lose it, went downstairs and yelled "(NAME) STOP PLAYING", to which he replied "ok" straight away and put the ipad down and quickly left. I think he realises that I don't like him now. 


OH HAHA MICHELLE'S FRIEND GOT STUCK IN THE TOILET LOLOL. SHE WAS FULLY GOING "HELPPP" HAHAHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAH hilarious.


I also walked into a metal thing protruding from the door frame. Ouchie =(


OMG HOW SWEET MY TWO FRIENDS ARE ENGAGEDDDDD!! Finally! Hehe so happy for them =D